first things first. i dont write here to entertain an audience..u read it so thats one person..n uly prolly reads it..so thats two..so shut up n read or else dont. u complain tooo much..lol sumwhere down the line. i snapped outta it..n i didnt even realize when, where, why, or how it happened.. i didnt even feel it..i just slowly started to sink into my head that im ok. im better than ok. im, dare i say, happy? n yes i did it all on my OWN. without anyones help...im stronger than i thought. best lesson learned. i mourned him for exactly one night. that night i shed the tears that needed to be shedded. that night i listened to all those songs that would stir up emotions.i thought back about all the memories. i looked at all the pictures. i read all the notes. and put it all back into the memory box [such a symbol]. i still wont open that box because its not time. but that night i thought about it over and over. that night, n that night alone, i allowed myself to be weak. that was a good/sad/painful/amazing night. +such an improvement from the time before. yay!+ after that night i got back my characteristic composure..or as uly calls it snapped back into the "ice princess" i used to question lots of things in life. theres one less thing that i doubt/question..n theres a few thi is there love? ofcourse there is. its the best feeling EVER. even if it doesnt last forever. is there such a thing as forever? expected answer= no. my answer=still yes do i hab any regrets? no i would do it all again in a heart beat. oh, n to my only audience of one, start thinking about what ur gettin me for my b day..cause i didnt like ur last idea. lol | 
